Be My Calm

No matter how strong I am spiritually, I always have weak moments. There are times when Satan attacks me when I'm most vulnerable and unaware and he has a field day with my emotions and my thoughts. As much as I don't like admitting that I have these moments, I do. I know many of you do too. Sometimes I close my door to my room, go into my bathroom and cry my eyes out to God and release all of my frustrations to Him. I have learned that it is in these moments where I welcome God to be my peace and my comfort. Even though it sometimes feel as if no one is listening or that I am alone, deep in my heart, I know God is right there with me. He sees me.

I often write my personal prayers like poetry. In my writing, it just flows that way. It reminds me of the many Psalms that David wrote when He was feeling at his lowest. It reminds me that I am not the only one who feels this way and that God knows the frustrations we face here on earth. He longs to be our comfort. I debated as to whether I wanted to share this prayer because it is real and it really displays my raw emotions, but I remembered that there could be someone who can relate and may need help with calling on God in moments like these. I know God has heard my prayer and I know that He knows even the unspoken prayers of my heart. I pray that anyone else feeling the same is comforted by this. 


I need Your peace and comfort to rule in my heart. 
I know You are near and that You see me. I know You hear my cries and know of my pain. 
Lord, be my calm.  
My spirit is disrupted and my sight of You is blurred, I know You are near, but I need to feel You. 
I know of your strength and have experienced Your power, but my body is weak and my soul is bothered.
Lord, be my calm.
I feel alone, no one can hear me, but Lord you know me. You see me. You promised to comfort me.
I need You Lord. I need Your peace. 
Calm my spirit, 
Calm my anxiety,
Calm my fears,
I know You are near.
Build my hope.
Strengthen my confidence.
Lift my head.
Dry my eyes.
Fill my heart.
Calm my spirit.
Lord, be my calm.
I need be my calm.

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about what happens to you." - 1 Peter 5:7